Thursday, December 3, 2015
The Mother of Reinvention
Well, November is over and December is well on its way, and I am almost ready to get out of my blue funk. (Which reminds me, I had a teacher by that name once, Funk, and I remember thinking that the rowdy boys at the elementary school were terrible spellers because of the way they always mis-spelled her name in graffiti on the back of the school building. Really, so little has changed, except that I would recognize that particular 4-letter word if I saw it on a wall today . . . but I digress.)
I'm not as young as I used to be. November is my birthday month, and always a broody time for me. It was even when I was young, and it certainly hasn't improved with age. I 'celebrated' the day by giving notice at my job, a position I suspect they are as ready for me to leave as I am to leave it.
I have such a different view of hospice than what I see happening there, and it just got harder and harder to pretend to bosses and staff that it was all just ducky. And since I am not very good at pretending, my annoyance with it all was annoying to them. So I am really glad to have quit, and will be happier still I expect on the 14th, which is my last day of work. But now I face the Void of my future until I can put a new puzzle together. Sure, I am a little worried. I am already so lazy and reclusive by nature that it would be easy to just never get out of bed again. But have no fear, I will reinvent my life and myself and am even looking forward to it a little. So far all I can report is that I have reluctantly almost totally crossed "run away to alaska" off the list of possibilities.
Do you remember, by any chance, the Mothers of Invention (with Frank Zappa), an american rock group from my long ago past? That's how you know you have joined the Truly Old, when those Truly Old things pop into your head for no apparent reason. Anyway, if you wondered, that's where this post heading came from, that 'pop.'
Meanwhile, in between working and not working, I am going to visit my daughter for a few days next week. I will no doubt post the usual NOLA photos while I am there, the same ones you've seen each year if you come here often, so if you want something different you should send in your requests now.
But for today, a friend took me out to a belated birthday dinner, and I so enjoyed that, both the food and the company. I'd been on a no-carb diet for the past few weeks, and the mexican restaurant, chips and cheese and all, was a super treat of 'forbidden' food. I expect I will pay for it tomorrow, but I sure did enjoy it today! :)
I hope your week has been filled with enjoyable things, too. It's cuddle weather here, so I am always trying to find someone to hold onto. Thank goodness my Grands haven't learned yet how to resist me. :)